My Testimonial

As mentioned kt previous entry, this is my testimonial for PB product yg I dah purchase. PB? Apekah PB? Premium Beautiful... Product ni u olz bole la google and giggle sdiri, sbb I pon xexpert and xnak la explain lebey2 ***nnt ingt I promo lebey*** hehehe. Im just a customer and not even agent or member. And...this is just my testimonial on my wearing experience of the product. Just that. Kalo sesape berminat or nk tnye, I can answer just based on my experience and bole gak gv my agent contact. She'll be glad to entertain u olz.

To start with my testi, I story sket pasal macamana I decided to choose PB. At first mmg itu adelah my last choice as the price ***pd ketika itu*** I think I cant afford. I decided to find solution utk shape up my body after confinement as aku xbpantang dengan betul pon. I wear bengkung just a few days, then I xpakai pon cause Im not comfortable wearing it, plus bengkung tu mmg susah nk pakai. Bengkung yg perlu dililit2, and u just cant wear it on ur own! Susah kn? Plus its my first time wearing it, kain belacu mmg panas hokey! and for mommies to be, please be reminded that u have to wear something else on ur skin before 'applying' the bengkung at ur body. If not, mmg byk luka and pedih disebabkn u'll be perspire like mad, dgn kain panas tu.... i think ur skin will be mgelembung bcause of heat.

Masa tu mmg I know nothing, after few days, luka dekat badan...i just stop wearing it. Pengorbanan sia2 yg myakitkan. ***I think*** then, after completed ms bpantang, perut pon xturun sgt, still ada spare tire. Encik Suami pon suggest mcm2, at least he speaks up kan. But, byk product pon susah I nk pki dgn disiplin coz xcomfortable. Then, only I read about PB... but actually my main concern adelah pasal DUIT. Of course laaa... hege 1 tu da sama gaji sbulan kn?! Xke pening nk pikir. Mau tapi xmampu. Macam Itulaaaa.... Then, aku survey2, the product, payment type etc. Kebetulan, ade seorg kenalan yg juga agent product ni. I keep on msg, email tnya pasal product ni. Lastly, after dah deal pasal payment then only I met her. I bayar guna cdt cdt easy pament. Alhamdulillah. Dpt jugak beli. uhuhuhu

Why PB? Selain dr problem to shape my body back to normal *** mustahil kn? but atleast I want to be fit*** I hv problem with my period and body cramp after giving birth. Period @ darah yg keluar after giving birth...nifas, biasanya tempohnya about 6weeks mcmtu...but mine xtentu. Even after pantang ade jek darah keluar but dlm kuantiti sikit. Tu yg mengelirukn... I just feel my body's not right...ade something wrong. I also experienced cramped kt bhgn peha, pelvic area, pinggang ... mmg mengambil masa yg lama utk rasa selesa utk duduk atas lantai. I think its a normal experience for mommies kn...

After wearing...whats the different? Alhamdulillah, Allah's Will... after wearing the product PB (Long Bra, Waist Nipper, Girdle) my body posture &  shape pon jadi lebih baik, and even my back pain pon dah xde. I can sit properly, duduk bersila pon dah bole tau! ***previously xbole...sakit*** I BF my baby, but it's not that hard by wearing PB. Dont worry. hehehe

And now, after satisfied dgn PB set that I've bought, I purchase another thing... kikiki short bra! ***wink wink*** Br dpt smlm, then balik trus excited try.... Harini pakai. *** memang sesuai utk pregnant lady tau*** I skang da 34W (8mo)... mmg selesa bangat! *** atleast I feel different when Im wearing my usual bra n PB short bra...which is more comfortable*** Even the agent pon actually tgh bpantang, she's wearing this short bra and girdle for few days of confinement, then changing from short bra to long bra afterwards. hehehe semangat nk kurus :p

Im not promoting the product for my benefit, Im just sharing my experience.=)

Another Chapter of Pre-Labor Prep/ Baby Checklist

Assalamualaikum olz! Hehe InsyaAllah coming weekend adelah penamat bg Ramadhan dan mula la Hari Raya Aidilfitri,dengan rendah hati...saya menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun dan maaf kepada rakan2 bloggers@pembaca umumnya atas ape saje yg dilakukan yg menyentuh/guris/sakit hati yer. Saya disini juga memaafkn ape saja kesalahan (insyaAllah) semua xkira yg membaca @tidak blog ni. Raya atau x, mmg kita wajib maaf bermaafan yer idak? hehehe anyway, disebabkn si Ibu ni sebuk menghapdet dan kekalutan mem'prepare' brg2 utk 2nd time labor hati ni sedikit celaru@susah hati sbb byk agenda yg perlu di penuhi dlm masa terdekat. Masa pon amat mencemburui, cepat je masa berlalu...mmg xsedar. Almaklumla, masa mcm da suntuk, brg untuk raya pon gitu2 jek asal ade udah. Xdapat nk pikir kikiki. 

Disebabkan ade masa sket ni, nk update checklist II (adik) =). Semalam cuti for checkup, mayb doc nk tgk p'kembangan' before and after raya. Last checkup, xsilap 21hb lepas (bulan 7...means last 3weeks) xsmpi sbulan pon gap checkup. For this checkup, alhamdulillah, blood pressure normal. urine ok. But...turun 2kg in 3weeks time. Wah btul2 bpuasa >>>Pn doc ckp:p. Byk turun tu coz baby's gaining bout 700 grm, now 2.2kg dh.Ibu jek xgain any weight.haduih... mne la nk gain kn, selera xbape bln posa ni. xde tuka2 angin mkn kt luar, except weekend kalo blk umah mak aku. Xpela.... bselera sgt pon susah jugak, naik byk...susah nk turun.Br jek nk gain 60kg...da turun blk.

Pn Doc pesan suh gain weight raya nnt, so... next appointmt is in 2weeks time. 28th Aug. Wuuu..makin kerap plak checkup, buat 'akak' neves je tau. by that time da 36w. Harap2 dpt la control2 sket mkn raya nk, kalo x....rosakla mesin timbang. ***duhhh~~~*** 

Okie Dokie, straight to the point, checklist update!!! Here we go!Xbyk pon kami beli sbb bj kakak pon hado laie, cumanye, baju kakak pon da bintik2 kaler da tuka kelabu cekelat sume ade. ***ibu rajin basuh bj! tu yg baju anak kaler da xcantek =( *** iklannnnn japs***OK!!! Hepi giler, td br dpt my PB short bra from aisyah. Tharu ok, sbb even dia dlm pantang ***10days confinement*** sanggup gi amek order & poskn utk diriku. Previously, after few months confinement, aku bli PB set from Aisyah. Then, just decided to buy short bra as recommended by many. Nnt aku buat testi sepanjang penggunaan PB plak hokey?! Heheh ***aku bukan agent/member HAIO,utk makluman ;)*** bersambung dgn checklist. HERE WE GO!!!

Baby Outfit (DONEDONEDONE)

• Baju lengan pendek - done
• Baju lengan panjang - done
• Seluar pendek - done
• Seluar Panjang - done
• Rompers  - done
• Stokin bayi & Sarung Tangan - done
• Handkerchief  - done
• Topi  - done 
• Barut Baby  - done
• Blanket  - done
• Hooded blanket (1)

Diaper Stuff (Almost done)

• Napkin( lampin) sedozen - done
• Napkin/ diaper liner - done
• Diapers pakai buang (newborn)/ cloth diaper - NOT done
• Safety Pin - done
• Pelapik getah - done
• Laundry Detergent - done
• Nursery bag - NOT done

 

Baby Care & Grooming (DONEDONEDONE)

• Minyak telon - done
• Baby Powder - done
• Baby lotion - done
• Baby shampoo - done
• Baby body shampoo - done
• Baby bath tub - done
• Baby oil - done
• Towel baby - done
• Nappy Cream - done
• Wet/Dry Tissue - done
• Hair Brush - done
• Cotton Bud - done
• Cotton Balls - done
• Nail Clipper - done
• Nasal Aspirator -done
• thermometer - done
• Wet/diaper bag - done
• Laundry bag - done

Nursing (Almost Done)

• baby pillow & bloster & tilam - done
• Net Nyamuk/kelambu - done
• Laundry basket - NOT done
• Bakul baju baby - NOT done
• Baby care bag - done
• Hanger baju baby - done

Feeding (Almost Done)

• breastpump - done
• techni ice -done
• cooler bag - done
• Bottles - done
• Puting botol susu (2)
• Bottle sterilizer - done
• Bottle brush - done
• Sterilising tablet 
• nipple cream
• nipple shield
• nursing pad (disposable - box(24)) - done
• nursing pad (washable) - done
• nursing bra (4) - NOT done
• nursing pillow - done
• pacifier - done
• thermos - done

Travelling (DONEDONEDONE)

• Baby bag- done
• Baby carrier/stroller - done
• Baby Carseat - KIV 
• Milk casing - done

Mama's need (DONEDONEDONE)

• Stokin - done
• Sweater -done
• Nursing Blouse (front-buttoned) - done
• Nursing Bra - done
• Disposable panties
• Pad - done
• Set bersalin - done
• Jamu- done
• bengkung / PB - done

Pregnancy & Fasting

First time fasting while being pregnant. Dlu ms tgh BF, now pregnant. I would say, lebih mcabar kot time BF...sbb lebih lapar as kne produce milk for baby lg kn. But semua pon rezeki dan mpunyai hikmah yg besar. Sangat besar! 

Untuk preparation Ramadhan, I ganti puasa just before Ramadhan starts...nk get use of it. So that I xrasa terlebey exhausted and so.For sahur, this Ramadhan I amalkn minum susu kambing which my husband mmg provide for me and him, kitorg mmg amalkn minum. Minuman sunnah katanye, i believe its good for me ***from experience***. I dont actually eat much, kdg2 mkn biskut or roti.Mmg nk mkn nasik, but...depends on lauk la... Biasanye i xjamah pon. I just hv a light sahur. That'll do. Alhamdulillah.

Biasanya bila bercerita pasal puasa, the most interesting part is Breakfasting! Kn?!!! heheheh mcm2 resipi, mknan, bazar da ade kt kepala. Tpulang pd individu mcmana nk spend or strategized their apetite and budget. For me, i just wish skali skala ubah angin dan selera. Teringin je, kalo xdpt pon xpe la... ***sobsobsob*** Jeles jek tgk org bbuka kt luar ke kn. Er... bukan mls nk masak coz aku bukannye masak sgt duk kt umah bapak mertua ni. Biasala, selera org puasa & pregnant lady ni mcm2 kn.Sbenanrnya, tringin gak nk masak untuk berbuka... biasanya kalo sempat pon, aku akan masak bihun/mee goreng @ kuih karipap segera. Mmg encik nizam galakkan sgt aku masak, mne taknye da lama kot xrasa air tgn isteri. ***tau pon....kikikiki*** nk masak, tp bapak mertua da siap masak. Hurm.. xpela.

Rsnya bole kira dgn jari bape kali aku myuap nasik sempena bulan Ramadhan ni, mmg sadis la kn. Agak2 kalo timbang berat badan... bape gaknye skang. Last time, 24W (6mo) - 60 kg, 28W(7mo) -60.5kg. Baby gained 600gm at 7 mo, tp berat aku naik 500gm. So...actually berat aku xnaik. At that time, aku sebuk ganti puasa...that's why berat xnaik sgt. Then, skang ni bln puasa....mcmana agaknye. harap2 baby's gaining some weight so that ibu xkne scolded by doc or encik Nizam. heheheh.

Rasanya, harini mcm nak masak mee goreng for break-fasting. Tp barang pe pon xbeli lg...*sedeynye* hurm.... cmne yer??? gi bazar jekla gamaknye. Byknye yg teringin ni.... :(

Dah Mula Bosan

Ape nk jadi, br 19 hari bpuasa xkan bosan kot? Oooo bukan bosan dgn Ramadhan tp, rasanya da bosan dgn diri sdiri dan cuba mencari balik diri ni. Actually, sejak da jadi Ibu, life sebagai isteri makin xtertanggung dan xterjawab...maklumla, kembali berbadan dua. Miserable in conclusion. Susah nk bahagi masa, especially weekdays. 9am-8pm (max) daily... Suami akan bekerja smpi lewat mlm 1pg cmtu, depends pd kerja dan kudrat, Isteri mmg da collapse at that time penat mlayan kerenah si kecil yg lasak. Pg...isteri biasa akan bgn lg awl, depends pd tahap kerajinan... So di situ la kami kurang berkomunikasi ketika hari2 bkerja. Tapi alhamdulillah, anak ni yg jadi pengikat kami, penceria dan pengubat hati kami. 

Apa yg Si Ibu@Isteri ni bosankn? rasanya LIFE. yup... rasanya nk mbuat sesuatu perubahan selepas dari bersalin anak ke-2 nnt, InsyaAllah dgn izin-Nya. Semuanya senang, tp xmudah... merubah sesuatu yg menjadi rutin. I want to learn something and make use of my time wisely. Malaysia da masuk dlm chart 10 negara termalas didunia. If im not mistaken. Tp bukan sebab ni, sbb da byk dgr ceramah kt IKIM.FM, TV... merenung balik diri sdiri. Org zaman dolu2, zaman rasulullah s.a.w. , dan selepasnya... ahli2 fikir zaman tu mempunyai kecenderungan yg bak kata omputih 'well-rounded'... bukan specific to one thing. Tp berbeza zaman sekarang, org kita malas...kalau dia bkerja mkn gaji..itu ajelah die buat. Kalo graduate engineering@ account etc... ke arah itu saja la yg akan diusahakn nya.Sebenarnya manusia ni banyak ada byk kebolehan, dr segi mental @ physical skills.

So, aku rs aku nk buat 'COBAAN' ke atas kebolehan yg aku xpasti...ade ke x ni. aku nk belajar menjahit... kikikiki Tgk Pn Asna pon da start mjahit, aku pon jd excited! Ok Over excited.... heheheh!!!! Xsabar rasanya untuk masuk rumah baru and start my 'new trial'. I pray to Allah, hope that everything went well, dan COBAAN ni bukan setakat omong kosong. Biasala manusia ...on and off.. Tp harap, semangat tu mbara2...flaming hot mcm ayam nandos :p ***uuu sedapnye***

Xsabarnye....=)

Ramadhan Ooo Ramadhan

14 Ramadhan, pejam celik dah hampir 2minggu berpuasa... 1 hari suda tumbang, disebabkn xsahur. Coz ade experience penah xsahur masa pregnant ni mbuatkn badan mgigil2...then i just proceed with keputusan xpuasa. Kan ade rukhsah bg wanita menyusukan dan mgandung bg tidak berpuasa. Allah itu Maha Mengetahui dan Menyayangi hamba-Nya.

Berbezanya tahun ni dengan yang sebelum2nya... Thn ni, kali ke-3 berpuasa sebagai Isteri, kali ke-2 sbg ibu dan kali pertama dlm keadaan pregnant di bulan ramadhan. =) Cabaran bpuasa tahun ni lebih besar sebab pregnant dah minggu ke 32++ tp alhamdulillah sedikit keringanan dan hikmah susu badan dah xde, xmyusukan Nabilah lg. Xtaula mcmana ibu2 kt luar sana dlm bulan ramadhan ni bpuasa, myusukan, dan pregnant dalam masa yang sama. Memang kagum! Hebat dan Tabah!!! Aku skang ni pon blk umah je da lembik sebenarnye, tp gagahkn jugak diri untuk bantu2 kat dapur.

As previous year, ayah mertua mmg akan myediakn juadah (apa yg mampu disediakn) depends pd masanye, kadang2 masak, kadang2 beli. My SIL pon ada, (coz we're still living at my FIL hse) whoever yg ada kt rumah, will provide dan kemas2 la ape yg patut. Pd keadaan aku skang nk bmalas2 pon xboleh...maklumla kita duduk kt umah org kn, segan la pulak. tp dlm condition skarang nk paksa diri nnt sdiri yg pengsan. Harap2 mereka faham. Harapla sgt. ***Kalo xphm.... saya redha*** uhuhuhuh 

Pemakanan bagi wanita pregnant ni sangat penting, mula2 haritu before ramadhan lg, I da start bpuasa ***puasa ganti*** plus sebagai persediaan utk sambut Ramadhan ni. Takut2 xlarat...nk tgk kemampuan, maklumla sentiasa rasa lapar je. Tp Alhamdulillah.... syukur pd Allah. Mcm xpercaya... bjaya jugak habeskn 13hari puasa ganti before Ramadhan. Dengan izin Allah jugak, makanan sunnah yg diamalkn tu mmg mberi kesan positif sepanjang berpuasa. Im the type yg susah sket nk jamah nasi time bsahur, i usually drink a glass of plain water je. Tp bcause of my husband ni jenis yg mjaga pemakanan, makanan yg sihat dan sunnah...so sikit2 I pon terikut2. Nak xnk kan..cuba je pada mulanya. Mmg syukur, lepas amalkn dapat bertahan walaupun hanya dengan segelas susu kambing, kurma dan jus Tok Guru. My husband ahli HR Marketting tu, so Susu Kambing HR la jd pilihan kami. Kalau bminat bolehla cuba. Tp semuanye depend pd selera seseorg dan kembali pd-Nya...atas Izin-Nya.

Tahun lepas rasanya masa berbuka puasa paling mcabar, sbb myusukn Nabilah, then, masih berpantang makan. Disbbkn duduk rumah FIL, my FIL xberapa tau sgt pasal pantang ni...maklumla lelaki. Xingtla ape yg I dapat mkn dlu... ala kadar je bbuka. Tahun ni, pregnant pulak, mmg selera pon xseberapa. My FIL mmg pandai masak, bak kata dia 'masak ikut selera sdiri'. Tp Alhamdulillah bole la mkn, kdg2 dia rajin jugak belajar dr kawan resipi2 yg die bkenan. Masakan feveret FIL kebanyakkn berunsur santan mcm kari, masak lemak cili padi. Bab masak lemak cili padi I mmg suka jugak, tp bapak mertua suka masak ikan keli + rebung***ttttttttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttt*** I dun like, ntah sbb ape..tp kalo die goreng tu kdg2 bole la telan, mayb sbb garing kot. I dun ike lembik2. Dalam banyak2 die masak I suka die masak daging masak itam. Maveles!!! Errr pe lg, ayam goreng utk nasik ayam tu.... Uih maveles laaa ***bulan2 posa ni kalo ckp pasal mknn isk2 laju jek kn***

Xdapat imagine kalo nnt da pindah rumah sdiri, bole cope ke dgn kerja, anak2, kerja rumah, memasak eh... I mmg suka mmasak, da xsabar nk ada dapo sdiri tau! Da berangan mcm2 tp xtaula...akan masak atau x???!!! Confirmla masak kn! Husband I kdg2 rajin gak request. Aaaaa excitednye nk ade dapo sdiri, nk masak lauk ikot suka hati. Pandai masak tu idak ler, tp sbb rasa nk mkn mcm2 suka la nk cuba2. Hehehe 

Doakan kami berjaya dgn rumah kami nnt. Dalam process insyaAllah. Tp banyak yg perlu diselesaikn sbelum bpindah. Proses biasa... rumah lama kn. hehehhe xde aral, ujung thn @ thn depan plg awl masuk rumah. InsyaAllah.Will be missing memori duduk di rumah FIL bsama2 my ILs. Pahit manis pon ditelan jugak...semua pon adelah lumrah kehidupan..warna warni org kata.

Semoga kita semua berjumpa lg dengan Ramadhan tahun hadapan. Dengan Izin-Nya..Amin.

Baby's not a Baby anymore

Lama sudah xupdate blog. Xde feel nk type or share anything. I just dont feel like to do it. Mayb bcause so many things happened at this time of year. Rasa my life pon a bit misserable. Change of workplace/company, SIL wedding xlama lg, planning on buying a house (xnew pon... but Alhamdulillah! We're lucky to get to buy one), spending most of spare precious ti with my 'baby' which i could say lil baby is not a baby anymore. She's already 1 Yo. Plus, xlama lg jengjengjeng akan dpt adik. Im already at 32W of pregnancy.

That's the news. Im again, me.... pregnant! 8Months already kn.... uhuhuu Alhamdulillah, im able to BF my lil baby Nabilah for about 7-8months. Until then, susu pon da xde. Ups and Downs...Stressed at the time, why my milk production merudum.***Blur*** Stress*** We ***husband and I**** not even prepare Nabilah for any formula milk.Pity my lil baby. Masa tu only Allah Knows how i'm feeling, all this while, bf my lil baby....then immediately hv to change to FM. I've no choice though. 

I've asked around about my milk production yg merudum, then they just assume that i might be pregnant! I cant even imagine at the time...what if its true.My period pon not in a regular state.... even before pon mmg mcm ni.It's hard to convince others that what u've been through.... Im a bit dissapointed,  at the time my milk production xbyk tu, husband keep pushing me to pump more frequent. Ok...I tried...but 2oz a day 8am-5pm (3-4 times of pumping) 2oz?????!!! mmg xlogik. So, I just want to be prepared, caused simpanan susu pon xbyk lg...propose to husband to get a FM for Nabilah. At the time, he refuse a few times... ***Sabar je la masa tu ***  After my husband sdiri saksikn and convince that my milk mmg xcukup utk Nabilah, then only...we got her the FM. Masa tu Nabilah mmg mnangis kelaparan. I can feel my B xfull, usually we can feel that our B producing milk when we keep on BF/pump. But... it has not happen anymore. Tired.

To find the rootcause of my milk mystery, I asked my hubby to buy 'the test kit'.... Later find out, 2 lines.... hurmmm.... ***Happy, Sad, Dissapointed, Yeay, Im not ready, A boy mayb???*** I just dont feel like to express my feeling. Just thinking bout my lil baby. ***sedey kn???*** But who are we to refuse? Who are we to questioned our fate? I just have to thank Allah, mayb He has something for us later. A baby, it's just wonderful actually! Nabilah will get a new friend! ***HappyHappy***

32 Weeks. I havent prepared anything ***bag*** and even baju baby pon xbasuh lg. hurm, few things lg xbli. Hopefully sempatla. Coz, skarang ni our hse a bit bz, SIL getting married on this coming sept. So... schedule pon da byk lari.... Xmau komen lebih2. uhuhuhuh I just have to get ready and prepared myself, baby and Nabilah.

Not a baby anymore uhuhuhuh

Happy Fasting*Happy Break-Fasting*Happy Ramadhan

Everyone has a Limit

Entry harini lebih pada sesi luahan perasaan akibat dah lama aku pendam, tapi aku cuba olah ayat tu dengan lebih rasional supaya tidak terlalu emosional dan keterlaluan. Maklumlaaaa nama pon sesi luahan perasaan, berat sebelah pulak ceritanya. Emosi yang kurang stabil ni disebabkan faktor2 belum dapat kerja lain kot, so aku rasa agak tertekan sket akibat tempoh kontrak pon dah nak tamat, kerja pon hampir 3thn without any increment pon 1hal. Ok aku rasa part tu aku xpayah sentuhla kan, sebab rezeki tu Allah yg tentukan. *** Nampak sangat aku xbersyukur*** Astaghfirullah..... biasalah manusia, keinginan tinggi, tapi yang sedia ada tu xpenah bersyukur... rezeki kesihatan, kehidupan bahagia tanpa bala bencana, boleh beramal dan beribadat.... ***isk isk.... beristighfar jap *** 

Back to the point, aku mula rasa ketidakselesaan kt ofis yang maksima. Mana taknya, bayangkan kita datang ofis, untuk berkerja ***xboleh blah skema*** bagi yg ada kerja tu siapkan kerja, bg yang xde tu bawala diri 'google'ing, 'yahoo'ing', 'facebook'ing etc atleast laa kan. And if nk bersembang u better keep your voice at the lowest volume as possible. Haaa...the condition is different here, kalo sampai bukak pintu tu... da dgr suara bergebang. Ok fine, after 10-20 minutes it happen, diorg ni akan rest for awhile and sambung lagi bergebang. Depends on topics discussed, if yesterday is a public holiday @ somebody from the group was on leave, so the story will become interesting until they cant stop talking and laughing.

Its weird how they can maintain the energy to chat for a long time, i would prefer sitting down quietly at my place and do my thing, whatever it is. Nak kata aku pendiam tu tidak, but the office i think not a place for me nk chit chat cmtu. Kalo yer pon nk bersembang out of office time breakfast, lunch @ teatime. Diorg ni sangatla tidak respect others privacy, sebab bukan aku saja yg tak selesa but ramai... Sometimes ada yg tegur2 jugak, but how can we expect people to change? Macam kedai kopi dah rasa. Haihhhh

And another thing yang merimaskan aku ialah honestly, aku suka mendengar and sometimes i will share my stories gak. But I dont know why...this person really annoyed me. Salah dia atau salah aku yang menyebabkan aku rimas, I dont know either, sebab tiap kali aku terfikir pasal nak pergi keje jek aku dah demotivate coz aku akan jumpa dia. Macamana keadaan tu merimaskan? You could imagine sampai2 jek ofis then there go someone who'll wait for u until u stop doing ur work, just for breakfast. Xsempat pon nk bukak outlook... ***kadang2laaa*** and masa tu jugakla dia bukak mulut nk ajak bersembang. FYI, aku akan amek time, before I start anything. Aku akan diam beberapa minit.... I just need my time and the silence...

Bukan aku xsuka bersembang dgn dia, tapi aku rasa dia banyak sesi luahan perasaan, lebih beremosi, pastu asyik bercerita pasal husband so...aku rimas. Aku mcm jadi stress dgn cerita2 tu aku xboleh tahan. Memang dia bawak negative energy pada aku. So, kadang2 bila dia nk bercerita, aku tend to buat xlayan or bg respon yg biasa je without asking anything. Macam rude kan? But mmg masa tu aku dah annoyed sgt so, before aku bawak negative energy balik rumah baik aku stop dia.

Kesimpulannya, mayb diorg tgk aku macam org yang bole bawak sembang2 tapi aku xsuka sangat sembang2 cm 'akak salu buat kt surau' tu. Bukannya ape, aku xsuka bingit2 kot. Kt rumah @ bilik xpe, sembang ringan2 xpe, but bukan sesi luahan perasaan.... Im Sorry.

Maaf kepada sesiapa yang terasa, bukan nk burukkan sesiapa sebab xda nama disebut. Everyone has a limit.